The Great Reset.
No, I’m not talking about the World Economic Forum's intentions to take over the world by 2030.. I’m talking about my own personal ‘Great Reset’ that took me to the mountains of Peru for the last 6 months (barely leaving the mountain might I add, despite my initial imaginations of all I would do and achieve whilst being here.)
Many women I have spoken to have said these same words, which echo within me as I know and have felt this deeply.. ‘What is going to happen if I stop?’ ‘What if I collapse and lose all motivation for anything?’ ‘What will I be met with?’ ‘There's a fear of being in the uncomfortability’ ‘contemplating all of this makes me notice how anxious and confused I am about my life’ ‘I feel like I am not achieving and will get behind if I do less’.
There’s a fear of its indefinite / unknown nature, there’s great uncomfortability to acknowledge the areas in our life that may require change, or to process aspects of life so it can be integrated and transmuted it into growth, we all carry the weight from past generations (and we have the opportunity to heal through it rather than continue to pass it on) there’s also the struggles of the world becoming even more stimulating and intensified on our systems, and the collective suffering is felt in our bodies on an unconscious level.. Especially as women.
So my Great Reset was far overdue from living very unaligned with the core nature of my energetic structure and individual constitution. Key word to highlight is ‘individual’. Our world (and our logical mind) tries to structure everything into categories (the brains attempt to understand what the fuck is going on here in this ‘physical reality’) and we are taught to look outwards for validation and direction, evaluating ourselves and our lives in comparison to what we think it should look or be like or what we have been taught.
For me, life has been tiring for the most part, whilst yearning for more depth in connection, inner freedom and an exploration for greater meaning and purpose, and to heal from what I felt was not harmonious internally. I pushed myself throughout all these years to try to do and be more efficient, productive, be who I thought I wanted and ‘should’ be.. Consistent, high achiever, riddled with self-induced pressure to be someone that makes me feel enough, trying to keep up with work, career, self growth, working out all the time (because I needed to look and feel a certain way to feel valuable and wanted), social life, studying, being ‘better’ and trying ‘harder’ so my life could tick certain boxes I thought I wanted, I was not at all honouring how exhausted I had been from dealing with what I now know as a very dysregulated nervous system (the majority of Western civilisation), emotionally and energetically spent from the bigness of life, whilst attempting to self-manager inner struggles since a young teenager, an unbalanced hormonal system, disharmonious relationships and adding onto the equation of being Highly Sensitive Person (an incredible gift that has to deal with being a part of an over-stimulating world) but those early years I wasn’t aware of what I now know since taking my awakening journey. I just thought something was ‘wrong with me’ which was reaffirmed by society and the people that don’t understand the uniqueness of your own experience and constitution. This is the issue with society, schooling and ‘categorisation’.
Even up until the last few years I was still not allowing myself to rest, to recover from the dysregulation and burn out. I would find myself in circumstances that didn’t resonate, my choices and actions were led by ‘should’s and negative reasoning, I dismissed my intuitions and messages from my body, I did not honour my internal guidance system nor my souls cry for Truth.. Although it was heard, I was not in a position within myself to acknowledge or take action. This is all said with grace because for whatever the process may be, on an unconscious level our choices and experiences are serving us to some degree that may not make sense intellectually but may to our subconscious and our body, based on the capabilities we have at that time.
The gradual reunion with myself has been many years in the making.. I had always known I was far from ‘home’ within myself and that there had to be another way of existing other than feeling tired and not at optimum health, gut issues, constantly being tugged at by ‘time’ to keep up with it, confined and unfulfilled by the ‘rules’ and expectations set for myself with all my limiting beliefs, bouncing between depressive states behind the scenes, questioning the fabric of reality and realising there was layers of authenticity wanting to be embodied but I wasn’t yet safe within myself to truly ‘be’ myself.
The above experiences are the soul's call to regroup, the perfect ingredients for what I define as complete a collapse of past identity structures and the opening to all questions that something inside is seeking answers to, some might say it’s like being nowhere and not knowing anything about the path to come which can be very confronting (which I now like to consider as ‘unlimited potentiality and opportunity presenting itself for Self-evolution’)
Our society has a great way of camouflaging its exhaustion and ignoring confrontation of Truth. We have been psychologically manipulated, we keep ourselves occupied and stay in the safety of the parameters deemed ‘right’ or that it’s just the way ‘it is’. So much ‘guilt’, ‘shame’ and ‘selfishness’ is used against us. Our logical minds override intuition, desires and imagination. There is such fear of the repercussions from addressing what's truly there in our soul, with fear of change and unknown activating our primordial responses. It takes courage to decide to explore yourself, to be accountable, to look deeply and to ask the bigger questions.
We have been hypnotised by a false idea of what we should be and do as humans in this fast evolving civilisation, brainwashed to feel inadequate, to be constantly striving for this goal that keeps moving and not ‘accepted’ if we veer away from the societal norm. It takes great will power and honesty to stop. To listen. To pay attention to the yearnings on the inside. It’s a reclamation of free-will, of sovereignty and a realisation that we are very powerful beings when we embody the individuality and authenticity of our human experience and our own unique blueprint. We limit ourselves far too much through our limiting belief systems and fitting with societal ideologies given to us.
It can be confronting to follow your own thread and begin to uncover what's under the carpet, when you create enough space with yourself to see, feel and come in contact with what’s there, in a way you hadn’t had the ability to do before. It’s removing the distractions of the people in your life and the everyday mind clutter to allow space for noticing and listening, undiluted by external stimuli. This is where you can notice what you hadn’t had the opportunity to notice about yourself before, behaviours, actions and choices around alignment, past, present and future and a call to venture in a particular direction that may not feel logical but more soul and wellbeing driven, you are able to interact more closely with the parts of you that you maybe didn’t want to pay attention to, or knew existed… Coming to ask the big questions of what do you want from your life currently and future projections, who are you really when it’s just you, the realisations and reflections unfold, letting in more light as you continue opening more doors and windows to your inner landscape.. Ultimately leading to a greater freedom, self-knowing and major transformation. This cascades out into the world in how you interact with life, with authenticity and maybe even with a sense of higher guidance involved, changing your whole myopic approach to what you want.
These are big changes...
When you are in the stages of the above, having your own ‘Great Reset’ will be your catalyst and expander. It’s the deconstruction and reconstruction and rebirth into the version of yourself that you hadn’t lived in or known well, but a version of yourself you know is in your potential timeline.
Everyone's journey is going to look different.. But if you aren’t asking yourself on a regular occasion when you are really ‘in it’ such as ‘what is going on’ ‘what am I even doing?’ or ‘what feels true for me right now?’ then perhaps you haven’t branched out far enough. As they say ‘to be found you must first get lost’ .. Sometimes we don’t realise we were lost until we stop and take space to check in. I encourage you to explore your edges with it all, to really get to know yourself and what insight is waiting for you through what you are called to do or not to do, but it is all based around a decent period of solitude, perhaps starting this process by taking week away by yourself, without distraction of tech or others. It can also be helpful to put yourself into new circumstances that involve learning and receiving from others wisdom and teachings in the fields you are drawn to. If crossroads present the potential of exploring overseas or to move to a new area as example, this can be a great foundation to a major ‘Great Reset’ as long as it’s based on having space for getting to know yourself outside of past structures and reliances.
It takes courage. It isn’t comfortable. Growth is not smooth and aesthetic, it is new to our nervous system when we venture into unknown territory (such as spending time alone without an endless task list to keep you busy) So if you are feeling all those things, see it as being exactly where you’re meant to be. If you are like the majority of society (and myself) - Dedicating to the reset will involve breaking down belief systems around earning rest, around being less productive, not attempting to please everyone and putting your needs first.
Guilt, fear, confusion, shame, may come up. Also know that when your body is in the right set of circumstances to reset and begin the journey back into a regulated state, it may feel similar to the idea of ‘burn out’ .. Again, this is actually a very positive sign because you are in repair mode. This may be intimidating to lean into, I too struggle even now with truly giving myself the rest I need and to move (or not move) with the ebb and flow of my energy levels, body and internal state asks from me, the masculine ‘consistent’ world we have been brought up in is quite engrained in our psyche.. The more we acknowledge our human need to listen and honour what's there (especially for women with all the forces that alter us, from planetary shifts, our environments, the people we are connected with and particularly our hormonal waves each month), having compassion on ourselves in these very stimulating and demanding constructs of living, being collectively entangled in the fear, war and disharmony as our civilisation and yearns for connection and real human needs. It's an intense time.. No wonder choosing all the high frequencies of joy, freedom and inner peace aren’t prioritised, we are just trying to keep up with the fullness and fastness of this ride.
The most rebellious act you can do? Choose and act in opposition. Slow down and peel back. It is the only way to find your inner anchor in the wild ocean. Your peace is worth far more than you can imagine, it has a domino effect. The reason I am drawn to express all of this is because I know what it is like on the other side. It is worth every painful recognition or uncovering of something uncomfortable to work with, every acknowledgement of what you truly want from life, it’s not the easy path, but the views are fucking phenomonal when you get to the top of the mountain. But before you can make your way up you must REST.. Give yourself the best opportunity to really work with the forest that sometimes you may feel lost in, it’s all a part of it.
To reiterate - It isn’t just a ‘I’m going going away for a week to relax and everything will sparkle with enlightenment, mission complete’. This is a long term voyage and sometimes we will need mini-resets to keep coming back to ourselves, back to what needs time, tenderness, attention and integration. We can’t honour regulation and ‘resetting’ whilst performing every other task and attempting to be a ‘normal’ human being doing our busy life. It’s a raw, real and vulnerable venture.
I want to let you know YOU GOT THIS. You also have got the support of myself as a complimentary conversationalist and support as I am here to serve by sharing, listening and guiding (although you are your best guide, you are the true medicine) everything and everyone else is just a breadcrumb, a door opener to where you are continually going on your unique journey.
I hope this inspires you. If you’ve made it here I would go as far to say your journey is very much in progression already and you are one of the chosen ones to support the great change in this world by not shying away from Self-discovery and Truth.
Namaste
Ruby